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20 MAR

Teen who watched porn for four hours a day vows to never kiss before marriage

by Metro
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A teenager who watched porn for up to four hours a day has vowed she wont even kiss before marriage now that she has conquered her addiction.

19-year-old Gracelyn Sorrell says she was 14 when an explicit picture on social media triggered her impure desires and prompted her to start watching porn.

She lost her dad in 2013 and said pornography was a way for her to comfort herself and escape from the grief.

Gracelyn, from Chicago, Illinois, would secretly access the porn on her phone and regularly stayed up until 3am trawling through porn websites and apps.

The high school student would binge on porn for four hours every day but said her splurges of porn and masturbation left her feeling guilty and ashamed.

By 2016, Gracelyn was surviving on just three hours sleep each night which caused her grades to plummet.

The teenager finally confided in her mum Karen, an office manager, in August 2016 who encouraged her daughter to find healing through the familys Christian faith.

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Gracelyn said: My phone was the easiest way I could access porn.

I could sneak around and do it in the afternoon when I got home from school and my mum was at work.

**EMBARGOED UNTIL 6PM GMT / 2PM ET (MARCH 19)** Gracelyn Sorrell. A teen who watched porn for up to four hours a day has vowed she won???t even kiss before marriage, now that she has conquered her addiction. See SWNS story SWNYporn. Gracelyn Sorrell, 19, said she was 14 when an explicit picture on social media triggered her ???impure desires??? and prompted her to delve further into X-rated websites. The teen sadly lost her dad in 2013 and said pornography became a way to comfort herself and escape from the grief. Gracelyn, of Chicago, Illinois, would secretly access the porn on her cell phone and regularly stayed up until 3AM trawling through porn websites and apps. The high school student would binge on porn for four hours every day but said her splurges of pornography and masturbation left her feeling guilty and ashamed. By 2016, Gracelyn was surviving on just three hours sleep each night which caused her grades to plummet. The teenager finally confided in her mom Karen, an office manager, in August 2016 who encouraged her daughter to find healing through the family???s Christian faith.
(Picture: Orel Chollette / SWNS)

I had my own room and my older sisters and brothers were usually at work.

After everyone went to bed I would turn off the lights and watch videos, sometimes until 3am.

I was watching about four hours of porn every day, one in the afternoon and then three or four hours non-stop at night.

When I watched the videos it gave me an adrenaline rush. It was like insulin to me, I needed it.

I was finding a place for my soul but it was an impure space.

The porn and masturbation was never fulfilling.

It was always a chase. It was dehumanizing. I felt guilt and shame afterwards.

I lost my focus on my schoolwork because my addiction was always on my mind.

I was always so tired because I would stay up until the early hours of the morning watching porn.

I was very stressed out.

I grew up in a Christian household. I basically grew up in the church my whole life.

I felt like I was leading a double life because I was this Christian girl in school but secretly I was addicted to this drug of sin.

**EMBARGOED UNTIL 6PM GMT / 2PM ET (MARCH 19)** Gracelyn Sorrell. A teen who watched porn for up to four hours a day has vowed she won???t even kiss before marriage, now that she has conquered her addiction. See SWNS story SWNYporn. Gracelyn Sorrell, 19, said she was 14 when an explicit picture on social media triggered her ???impure desires??? and prompted her to delve further into X-rated websites. The teen sadly lost her dad in 2013 and said pornography became a way to comfort herself and escape from the grief. Gracelyn, of Chicago, Illinois, would secretly access the porn on her cell phone and regularly stayed up until 3AM trawling through porn websites and apps. The high school student would binge on porn for four hours every day but said her splurges of pornography and masturbation left her feeling guilty and ashamed. By 2016, Gracelyn was surviving on just three hours sleep each night which caused her grades to plummet. The teenager finally confided in her mom Karen, an office manager, in August 2016 who encouraged her daughter to find healing through the family???s Christian faith.
(Picture: Orel Chollette / SWNS)

When I went on vacation with my family I was stressed because I should have been enjoying Thanksgiving with them but in the back of my head I was thinking, “I just cant wait until night time when I can watch the videos”.

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After confiding in her mother, Gracelyn began expressing her feelings to God through journaling and got rid of all the apps which she thought might rock her self control.

Her mum was supportive and encouraged her to go to her for counselling whenever she was struggling.

Gracelyn said: My mum was so supportive and she told me we had to pray about it.

From that moment on I started journaling.

I forced myself to have self control.

I stopped taking my phone to bed and I took extra precautions like deleting the apps and deleting Youtube.

When youre addicted to something, it is all you can think about. You have this powerful urge to watch.

But I dedicated those urges to my journals and bible worship.

I didnt have professional counselling but my mum has a lot of experience and is spiritually in tune with God.

Gracelyn is now a public speaker who travels around the US to share her experience with addiction.

The 19-year-old is also an advocate for abstinence and has made a vow not to kiss or have sex before marriage.

Gracelyn said: I have had relapses. Not many, but I have had times where I just couldnt fight it.

Some nights in bed I would cry afterwards and feel sorry I failed again.

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I slipped back into it for short periods of time.

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Whenever I had a relapse I confided in my mum.

She was never judgmental.

I felt like that transparency helped me get back on track. I havent relapsed since 2016.

I am waiting until marriage to kiss and have sex.

I always say it was my impurity that made me pure.

Right now I am not looking for a relationship. I believe its up to a man to find a wife so Im not searching. If he comes into my life then great.

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